Seriously
i may not be able to find out the ultimate answers to our existence but I believe that i can find out some answers if i continue searching with as much honest critical thinking as I am capable of. it is so easy to fall into thinking traps one must monitor oneself constantly. We deceive ourselves and often fall for "so called evidence" and it is a rocky road. One has to be willing to accept something that may be unexpected and uncomfortable and not what you had hoped for if there if solid evidence.
i felt very disappointd when all the paths i had followed turned out to be wrong but it's part of the learning process and i feel that using my remaining lifetime finding out anything that might be true occupies my meaning of life desire. i realized that I wanted certain things to be true and I looked for evidence to support it. I've learned my lesson.